I wanna go to Magnolia Mountain

and lay my weary head down.
Down on the rocks, on the mountain my savior made.
Steady my soul and ease my worry.
Hold me when I rattle like a hummingbird humming.
Tie me to the rocks on the mountain my savior made.



Today was one of the worst days in a while. And really I have no reason to be so upset. I let all the stupid little things that have been building up really get to me today. I guess I just get pissed when people want to talk to you on the phone/text you but don't want to talk to you in person. Oh and when they tell you they like you.. then that they like your best friend. Guh, I don't even like you anymore. It's just stupid shit like you walking her to basically every other class. And then never following through on plans with me. And you being an asshole in general.
The fact that I also failed an essay and got in trouble with an administrator for absolutely no reason made the day even worse.

In the end we're only spinning.

I haven't updated in forever.

As I predicted, winter break was amazing. Minus a few days here and there, I loved it all.
I still don't know how I feel about this boy. We agreed today that no matter what we would stay good friends because we don't want to be out of each others lives, but that maybe we shouldn't date or whatever. Which is fine, except he still talks like we're dating. Friends don't call each other cute little pet names and tell them they're beautiful. It's a very frustrating situation, but we'll see what happens.

JUST DANCE

Last night was one of the funnier nights of my life. Haha. I can feel it, this break is going to be awesome. Minus freaking practice at 6:30 IN THE MORNING on Monday and Tuesday. fhfgdhjhjask. I am going to die.

Just find the horizon.

Only one more week in the semester from hell! :)
This weekend was very good. Hung out with one of my best friends who I barely see anymore and kinda sorta mayyybeee a new boy. :) We'll see where this one goes..
Hope all is well! <3

Why am I dumb?

OKAY FOR REAL, why couldn't I have just turned in that FUCKING paper instead of being an idiot and not even doing it. OR MAYBE I could have just sucked it up and read the stupid book. I could sit here and bitch about how we had a fucking multiple choice test, essay test, AND an essay on it JUST because it is the teacher's favorite book ever and how that's not fair and shit like that, but really, how fucking hard would it have been for me to just READ THE BOOK. Now I figure out that essay I decided I didn't have to do was worth TWO test grades which means I'm probably going to fail lit. Which means I wont graduate in May. WHAT THE FUCK. I seriously hate myself so much right now I can't even comprehend it. GOOD FUCKING IDEA LINDY TAKE 3 AP CLASSES YOUR SENIOR YEAR AND THEN BE AT THE HEIGHT OF YOUR LAZINESS. REALLY FUCKING SMART IDEA.

And the band played

song's that we'd never heard, but we danced anyway. We never understood the words we just sang oh la la la la la la la la la. And we danced anyway.

Home sick. Bleh. I've been sick so much lately. This sucks.

Pour us a road, we’ll both drink and drive

I love Thanksgiving. I love green bean casserole. I LOVE MY FAMILY. I love my friends. I love college basketball. I love waking up at 11:30 on a Friday. I love coffee and cheesecake for breakfast. I love old Jimmy Eat World and Midtown. <3 I love nostalgia. I love Friday night football games. I love it when our boys are in the state playoff quarter finals. I love 5 day weekends.

Just thought I would take some time out to mention the things I love in life. :)
Hope all is well!