Why am I dumb?

OKAY FOR REAL, why couldn't I have just turned in that FUCKING paper instead of being an idiot and not even doing it. OR MAYBE I could have just sucked it up and read the stupid book. I could sit here and bitch about how we had a fucking multiple choice test, essay test, AND an essay on it JUST because it is the teacher's favorite book ever and how that's not fair and shit like that, but really, how fucking hard would it have been for me to just READ THE BOOK. Now I figure out that essay I decided I didn't have to do was worth TWO test grades which means I'm probably going to fail lit. Which means I wont graduate in May. WHAT THE FUCK. I seriously hate myself so much right now I can't even comprehend it. GOOD FUCKING IDEA LINDY TAKE 3 AP CLASSES YOUR SENIOR YEAR AND THEN BE AT THE HEIGHT OF YOUR LAZINESS. REALLY FUCKING SMART IDEA.