JUST DANCE

Last night was one of the funnier nights of my life. Haha. I can feel it, this break is going to be awesome. Minus freaking practice at 6:30 IN THE MORNING on Monday and Tuesday. fhfgdhjhjask. I am going to die.

Just find the horizon.

Only one more week in the semester from hell! :)
This weekend was very good. Hung out with one of my best friends who I barely see anymore and kinda sorta mayyybeee a new boy. :) We'll see where this one goes..
Hope all is well! <3

Why am I dumb?

OKAY FOR REAL, why couldn't I have just turned in that FUCKING paper instead of being an idiot and not even doing it. OR MAYBE I could have just sucked it up and read the stupid book. I could sit here and bitch about how we had a fucking multiple choice test, essay test, AND an essay on it JUST because it is the teacher's favorite book ever and how that's not fair and shit like that, but really, how fucking hard would it have been for me to just READ THE BOOK. Now I figure out that essay I decided I didn't have to do was worth TWO test grades which means I'm probably going to fail lit. Which means I wont graduate in May. WHAT THE FUCK. I seriously hate myself so much right now I can't even comprehend it. GOOD FUCKING IDEA LINDY TAKE 3 AP CLASSES YOUR SENIOR YEAR AND THEN BE AT THE HEIGHT OF YOUR LAZINESS. REALLY FUCKING SMART IDEA.

And the band played

song's that we'd never heard, but we danced anyway. We never understood the words we just sang oh la la la la la la la la la. And we danced anyway.

Home sick. Bleh. I've been sick so much lately. This sucks.

Pour us a road, we’ll both drink and drive

I love Thanksgiving. I love green bean casserole. I LOVE MY FAMILY. I love my friends. I love college basketball. I love waking up at 11:30 on a Friday. I love coffee and cheesecake for breakfast. I love old Jimmy Eat World and Midtown. <3 I love nostalgia. I love Friday night football games. I love it when our boys are in the state playoff quarter finals. I love 5 day weekends.

Just thought I would take some time out to mention the things I love in life. :)
Hope all is well!

"As the boy grew older he continued to wonder.

He went to the old man. 'Is the Precious Present a flying carpet?' he inquired. 'One that I could get on and go any place that I like?' 'No,' the man quietly replied. 'When you have the precious present, you will be perfectly content to be where you are.'"

Today was absolutely amazing. Not because it was perfect. Not because everything went my way. That wasn't the case. For the first time in a long time, I felt like everything was okay. Right or wrong, good or bad; it was okay. I laughed, smiled, talked, enjoyed others' company, opened up to people I've never opened up to. I also got frustrated, annoyed, upset. I cried, both happy and sad tears. All in one day. Everything seemed to happen just the way it needed to. I also realized what I have been feeling for a month or so now. In the beginning of October, I met someone with Cystic Fibrosis. A disease that is incurable and, on average, patients die in their 20s. He was 20. I think about him everyday. I don't know how someone you met for 10 minutes can have a profound effect on your life. I wish I could tell him. Living everyday to it's fullest and accepting it as it is, the way it should be, is how we should all live. I've always believed that everything happens for a reason. But I don't think I have ever ACCEPTED it. This feeling is so unreal. I have sat here and tried to write out what I am feeling, but it isn't working. So, I am not going to try. It'll only diminish what this is. I just wish everyone in the world could know this feeling.

"He agreed to savor each moment in his life…. The apparently good and the apparently bad…. Even if he didn't understand. For the first time in his life, it didn't matter. He accepted each of his precious moments on this planet as a gift."

Lay where you're laying, don't make a sound.

Well, it's been a week since I've been here. I'm slacking on school so much lately it is ridiculous. We're actually learning about learning habits and motivation in psychology right now. And it makes me feel like a failure, basically. Because I have no motivation at all. I'm going to try to work on my stat homework later, so we'll see how that goes.

We had our first game on Thursday. We lost by a lot. But it was only a scrimmage, so it doesn't count. It was still pretty bad. One of the boys on their team looked like Kevin Love, though. So that was nice ;) Hahah.

OH! And it's college basketball season. Which makes me so ridiculously happy. It will most likely contribute to even more slacking in school, however.

Feel like I've struck gold.

Today I went on a tour of North Georgia College & State University. I reaaaaally love it there. Like a lot. I'm finally getting off my ass and applying tonight. :D I'm pretty sure I'll get in, and I'm pretty sure it's where I'll end up going. Dahlonega is GORGEOUS and I looooove the mountains. Also, I had been to a few basketball camps there before and I used to live about 15 minutes away, but seeing the whole campus was great. Gahh, I am so ready for college.

Red fingernail polish peeling like a sunburn.

Meh. Today was just meh.
Election Day - but I couldn't vote. And right now, it's not looking good for McCain. But I didn't come here to talk politics. Well, I didn't come here to talk about anything, really. I'm just not wanting to finish my APLit paper. I saw HSM3 today, and I pretty much loved it. I really don't even feel ashamed saying that. Disney still knows how to make a damn good movie. I mean it was no "The Color of Friendship" or "Phantom of the Megaplex" but it was still a good movie. In fact, I danced my way out of the movie theater, which I am sureee my friends loved. ;) I bet they weren't embarassed AT ALL... The ride home was nice too. Wearing 3D glasses and blasting Backstreet Boys gets you some funny looks. But it doesn't matter, I had fun.

Hope all is well.
Goodnight! :D

Lay me on the ground and fly me in the sky

Show me where to look, tell me what will I find.

Nothing really happening today. I have homework, but as usual, I don't plan on doing it. Right now I really want to go driving. Or go to a park. Or just sit outside and read. I wish there was a nice place around here I could go without knowing someone there. Whenever I go somewhere, I always see someone. I mean, I guess it's nice, but some days I want to be anonymous.

I miss this:




















EDIT: It's amazing what a nice drive can do for you.
No destination, just driving.

I drove until I hit Peachtree Ridge High, then turned around.
Went back to Buford Highway and drove to Duluth.
I hung around the park for a while, just people watching.
Listened to some music. Took a few random pictures.







It turned out to be a pretty good day.

Let it rain.

Even though I am more stressed out than I probably ever have been, life is good right now. I have good friends, whether or not I choose to see that all the time, and I feel like I am growing as a person. I don't worry what people think anymore and I don't hold my feelings back. I was so sick of just being nice to everyone JUST to be nice. It gets you nowhere. If I don't like you, you know by now. And I don't careeeeeee. :)

Maybe we'll talk some other night, right now I'll take it easy

Lately I have been feeling so overwhelmed in every aspect of my life. School, basketball, friends, school, COLLEGE. I feel like taking a bunch of AP classes was a verrry dumb decision. fhdsjfhd And then basketball. I still love the sport, I always will. And I absolutely LOVE my team. These girls are awesome. But I HATE my coach, I know I am not that good and seriously I don't know if it is worth it anymore. I really cannot stress enough how much I miss my best friend.

If she still lived in GA, I would probably make her come over to my house and make waffles. And life would be okay.

These are always fun.

1. I miss you so much. I miss not being able to just walk across the street and see you. I miss having the best time with you even when we were doing the most boring things ever. Don't get me wrong, I love all of my other friends, but those friendships do not compare at all. I hate that I never get to talk to you. And that I can't see you but twice a year. You're the best friend I've ever had.

2. You talk way too damn much when other people are around. You do not need to impress anyone by chiming in on EVERYTHING. People will like you for you, like I do. Just let it happen, please.

3. I miss the old you. We all do. But every time we bring it up you think we don't want you to be happy with him. It's not true at all. We just don't want him to be the only reason you are happy. You don't need a boy to complete you.

4. I actually am starting to feel like shit for not having talked to you in almost 2 years. How is it that you move to the other side of the fucking country and I am the one who feels bad? Typical of you. You make me feel bad when we do talk, and even when we don't talk.

5. I love how you preached last year about being a "good girl" and said you would never be like them. Also how you were so naive that it took you all class period to even see that she was high out of her mind. Actually, that was pretty funny. But this year you have turned into a bit of a whore and love to get high. I have no problem with it, but I just crack up every time I think about it. You don't even realize.

6. You're so good at making people feel like they actually mean something to you. But I honestly don't think you care about anyone besides yourself. You're the most arrogant person I think I have ever met. Please go back to being the shy guy you were when we met. At least you weren't an asshole then.

7. You're so mature for your age, yet you are still so fun. I think you mayyy like to start drama/have drama in your life, but hey, we all have our faults. You're also one of the most fun people to talk to. I'm glad we met.

8. Hahahahha you? Why did I ever like you? Oh man...

9. You have been fake for so long, that I think you believe your own lies now. It's really quite sad.

10. You are so annoying. Please learn how to listen. Oh and that whiny voice you make when you are confused is not as cute as you think it is. Actually, it's not cute at all.