JUST DANCE

Last night was one of the funnier nights of my life. Haha. I can feel it, this break is going to be awesome. Minus freaking practice at 6:30 IN THE MORNING on Monday and Tuesday. fhfgdhjhjask. I am going to die.

Just find the horizon.

Only one more week in the semester from hell! :)
This weekend was very good. Hung out with one of my best friends who I barely see anymore and kinda sorta mayyybeee a new boy. :) We'll see where this one goes..
Hope all is well! <3

Why am I dumb?

OKAY FOR REAL, why couldn't I have just turned in that FUCKING paper instead of being an idiot and not even doing it. OR MAYBE I could have just sucked it up and read the stupid book. I could sit here and bitch about how we had a fucking multiple choice test, essay test, AND an essay on it JUST because it is the teacher's favorite book ever and how that's not fair and shit like that, but really, how fucking hard would it have been for me to just READ THE BOOK. Now I figure out that essay I decided I didn't have to do was worth TWO test grades which means I'm probably going to fail lit. Which means I wont graduate in May. WHAT THE FUCK. I seriously hate myself so much right now I can't even comprehend it. GOOD FUCKING IDEA LINDY TAKE 3 AP CLASSES YOUR SENIOR YEAR AND THEN BE AT THE HEIGHT OF YOUR LAZINESS. REALLY FUCKING SMART IDEA.

And the band played

song's that we'd never heard, but we danced anyway. We never understood the words we just sang oh la la la la la la la la la. And we danced anyway.

Home sick. Bleh. I've been sick so much lately. This sucks.

Pour us a road, we’ll both drink and drive

I love Thanksgiving. I love green bean casserole. I LOVE MY FAMILY. I love my friends. I love college basketball. I love waking up at 11:30 on a Friday. I love coffee and cheesecake for breakfast. I love old Jimmy Eat World and Midtown. <3 I love nostalgia. I love Friday night football games. I love it when our boys are in the state playoff quarter finals. I love 5 day weekends.

Just thought I would take some time out to mention the things I love in life. :)
Hope all is well!

"As the boy grew older he continued to wonder.

He went to the old man. 'Is the Precious Present a flying carpet?' he inquired. 'One that I could get on and go any place that I like?' 'No,' the man quietly replied. 'When you have the precious present, you will be perfectly content to be where you are.'"

Today was absolutely amazing. Not because it was perfect. Not because everything went my way. That wasn't the case. For the first time in a long time, I felt like everything was okay. Right or wrong, good or bad; it was okay. I laughed, smiled, talked, enjoyed others' company, opened up to people I've never opened up to. I also got frustrated, annoyed, upset. I cried, both happy and sad tears. All in one day. Everything seemed to happen just the way it needed to. I also realized what I have been feeling for a month or so now. In the beginning of October, I met someone with Cystic Fibrosis. A disease that is incurable and, on average, patients die in their 20s. He was 20. I think about him everyday. I don't know how someone you met for 10 minutes can have a profound effect on your life. I wish I could tell him. Living everyday to it's fullest and accepting it as it is, the way it should be, is how we should all live. I've always believed that everything happens for a reason. But I don't think I have ever ACCEPTED it. This feeling is so unreal. I have sat here and tried to write out what I am feeling, but it isn't working. So, I am not going to try. It'll only diminish what this is. I just wish everyone in the world could know this feeling.

"He agreed to savor each moment in his life…. The apparently good and the apparently bad…. Even if he didn't understand. For the first time in his life, it didn't matter. He accepted each of his precious moments on this planet as a gift."

Lay where you're laying, don't make a sound.

Well, it's been a week since I've been here. I'm slacking on school so much lately it is ridiculous. We're actually learning about learning habits and motivation in psychology right now. And it makes me feel like a failure, basically. Because I have no motivation at all. I'm going to try to work on my stat homework later, so we'll see how that goes.

We had our first game on Thursday. We lost by a lot. But it was only a scrimmage, so it doesn't count. It was still pretty bad. One of the boys on their team looked like Kevin Love, though. So that was nice ;) Hahah.

OH! And it's college basketball season. Which makes me so ridiculously happy. It will most likely contribute to even more slacking in school, however.